Showing posts with label artist problems. Show all posts
Showing posts with label artist problems. Show all posts

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Roller Coaster of .....

My life has recently been a series of ups and downs. I have found that you are, what you say, you are. I recently learned the meaning of " you live and learn". I am starting all over in this exciting new life that I have no plans for. I learned that being an artist and a mother, may be two of my biggest challenges in life thus far.
I have been recently living as a starving artist at my mothers house. Which is probably one of the hardest things ever! I feel very blessed to have my family to help support me through this shitty divorce process. I really want it to be over so that the heavy weight I carry for it will be gone.
I am becoming more obsessed with becoming a successful artist since all of the divorce has begun.
I know no matter what, I will have my boys and my art. I decided that since I know now, people lie. I will always be married to my art, it doesn't lie, cheat, or run away from me. So now when a new partner comes into my life, I will never choose them before my art. That is like denying a part of who I truly am inside and giving another control over me. My art will be my controller not another human being.